No More Pretending

I am so tired of pretending that I am not upset about Bingley.  He is visiting soon, and I am truly scared to see him. I have been acting like it doesn't affect me, but it really does. When I see that man I want to slap his beautiful face. I just cannot believe that he left me like he did. I am astonished. I hope that when he sees me he will realize what big mistake he made by leaving me and I hope that he wants to come back. I might not let him back in, but he is an amazing man. His leaving me left me broken hearted, but life goes on.